According to my "highly organized, color-coded" travel calendar one-sheet (the one I have been working on for the past three and a half months) Mom and I are suppose to be meeting in Seattle tomorrow and then jumping on a plane Monday afternoon to head to INDIA. Oh, how wonderful it all looks...ON PAPER. With the clock truly clicking down to the last minute, we found out yesterday Mom's travel visa to India has been caught up in some red tape and will NOT arrive in time for us to make our flight. I suddenly realize - the idea that I can control anything (other than my reaction to things) has no more value than that piece of paper my "high organized, color-coded travel calendar one-sheet" is printed on.
How well did I control my reaction to this news? Sadly - not well. Let's see - I cried...then froze....cried again...and stared blankly at my "highly organized color coded.... " well you get the idea. Oh my goodness....how many flights am I going to have to reschedule? How many hotel reservations? What about my friends who are taking time out of their lives to meet us at a certain place on a certain date? WHAT AM I GOING TO DO? Why is this happening to ME? WHY, WHY, WHY? I must say....I DO have that victim drama thing down pretty well, hehehehe.
You know what? Every last one of my Tibetan friends, my Indian friends, my Bhutanese friends told me the exact same thing....."No worries. We will be waiting for you when you get here."
So now, just 24 hours after I was sitting here in tears - ALL the flights are re-booked....all the hotels are rescheduled.....and all the tears are dried. AND - if I am SMART I will have learned a lesson from this. The idea that we control anything (again, other than ourselves) is a mere illusion. At the end of the day, everything will be exactly as it should be.
Have no worries, my dear. Indeed, all is illusion and things will be what they will be. "All will be alright in the end. So, if things are not alright, then it is not yet the end." (or, something like that) :)) -Deborah
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